Wednesday, November 26, 2014

such a jokester.

Do you ever miss something you've never had? Such a cliche question, I'm aware. It's something I've been thinking about recently, and more often. We all miss the things we have yet to experience. We all desire things that seem, for at least a time, unreachable. And yet, we all go about acting as if we don't really want or need them, and as if we are all incredibly independent as to not care. I feel the longing we all pretend we don't have, when I see couples fall in love in the movies, or read about it in my books, or when I have the chance to watch it happen in this lovely realm we call reality. It fascinates me to witness the daily excitement that is real. The facial expressions that butterfly churning causes overwhelms me with happiness for those people that are feeling it! How wonderfully blessed they are to have such an experience.

Long story short: This post is my confession that I do want that. I want the sappy romance. I want a family. I want the growth that can only come with an eternal companion by my side. Unfortunately, I have yet to receive that blessing. This may come off as desperate, if you interpret it as so, you are very much mistaken. I will be patient, and I will do my part while I wait. It's only recently that I've realized I must cope with the fact that I need to be humble. Because, I prayed and asked God to take this desire away from me, that is, until the time to actually have it arrived. He chuckled and answered "No way, my dear." He thinks he so funny...

So until that blessing comes, dear friends, I will live happily and vicariously through you, the movies, and my books.


Wednesday, September 3, 2014

hoping and wishing up flukes

Ever have those feelings for an old crush sneak back up on you?
Well I am currently having those.
And I'm hoping
and praying,
that it's just a fluke.

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Lady Mountain!

One time, we did this intense hike called Lady Mountain.
When we finished, I felt that I could take on anything that life brought on to me!
Because - I can. Obviously.
Then, my friend Michael wrote this cool article and it ended up in the paper.
You should read it.
You should also look at our fly photographs.

Michael's Article:

Fly Photographs:

Because of Him

So this is totally late in the game. But i just saw this video. It's powerful. And I wanted to share it. 
Happy Easter.

Thursday, March 27, 2014

"penny for your thoughts" ...

it's a quaint, nostalgic, cliche of a phrase. But for some reason or another I've always loved it. Though I hardly ever use it. I have no penny to give you, nevertheless you can give me your thoughts if you like. I, more often then not, enjoy them. And you don't have to give me a penny, I'll give you my thoughts for free: 

“You don’t have to get a job that makes others feel comfortable about what they perceive as your success. You don’t have to explain what you plan to do with your life. You don’t have to justify your education by demonstrating its financial rewards. [...] You have to pay your electric bill. You have to be kind. You have to give it all you got. You have to find people who love you truly and love them back with the same truth. 
But that’s all."
-Cheryl Strayed, Tiny Beautiful Things: Advice on Love and Life from Dear Sugar

... sometimes I forget those things. So, thank-you Val. You always have good words for me.

Monday, March 24, 2014

Mr. Roosevelt, thank-you for you

It's not the critic who counts. 
It's not the man who points out how the strong man stumbled. 
Credit belongs to the man who really was in the arena, his face marred by dust, sweat, and blood, who strives valiantly, who errs to come short and short again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming. 
It is the man who actually strives to do the deeds, who knows the great enthusiasm and knows the great devotion, who spends himself on a worthy cause, who at best, knows in the end the triumph of great achievement. 
And, who at worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and cruel souls who know neither victory 
nor defeat.

open, or not open. and... HOW?

Things that people post on facebook, twitter, instagram, etc social media I write in a little pocket size journal. Or on here. Or both. I just figure: It's nice to disclose things, and I consider myself a fairly open person. But posting my life for whoever to read it... I still haven't decided where I quite draw the line on that. I'll spill my life in person. Here you can get tidbits. Enjoy.

Tonight's disclosure:

I am playing a video game in my head.
You raise your hand for a password to your online test: I blow you up with a red laser.

If you come into the testing center to take a computer test tonight

we're not friends.

Good news: there is half a chimichanga, fries, and a chocolate shake awaiting me at home.

Saturday, March 15, 2014

     There is a spider inside my head
             Who weaves a strange and woundrous web
         Of silken threads and silver strings
                To catch all sorts of flying things
Like crumbs of thoughts and bits of smiles
    And specks of dried up tears
                              And dust of dreams that catch and cling
    For years and years and years.....